Love Through A Snapshot: Shot 6
Do you know the one thing that is an immediate killer of dreams? Perfectionism. It’s letting the ego get in the way of you doing what you are really meant to do in your life.
It’s ego that tells you to not go for your dreams in fears of what others may think of you.
It’s ego to care about your self-image or caliber in the world.
Granted, every day we must strive to be the best versions of ourselves and to grow in the likeness of our God.
That doesn’t mean to prance around with a “holier-than-thou” mentality. Maybe you know someone who acts pretentious in the name of God and confuses it with devotion. This isn’t to judge – it’s just to shed light on the flaws that we all have.
We can’t choose just to show the “good” side of us and not reveal our flaws (those flaws would be revealed anyways because light – even the light within you – always exposes darkness (Ephesians 5:13).
The best thing we can do is be honest with where we are on our walk of faith, and make do with what we have.
It’s something I admired in Jean and Amy. They were honest.
Jean and Amy explained to me how sometimes it’s hard not to compare your life to other Christians, but how God has allowed them to be generous with what they have. God allowed them to rid their minds of the ego so that they can be giving with what they have.
Years before, a pastor asked if Amy and Jean could host dinner for a youth group of over 20+ (I’m pretty sure there were more but I will fact-check) students. Without hesitation, they said yes.
It wasn’t until after the fact that it dawned on both Amy and Jean: How would they fit 20+ students in their small apartment?
This is the beauty of it…
They did it anyway. They hosted this youth group and showed no shame in their small apartment, knowing that they would serve with what God already gave them.
They went ahead with the plan. Both Jean and Amy making food to hopefully fill enough trays to feed their guests.
When the youth group came, there were more people than they expected, but thank God, every single person had enough to eat. The group crowded around on the kitchen and living room floor. Some of them sitting, others standing to make room for everyone to fit in their apartment.
For a moment, Amy even apologized that their apartment was so small, but to her awe, the youth group just showered her with gratitude and the amazing food.
Guys, in my eyes, that really is true giving with a selfless heart. And it actually was the testimony I needed to hear for myself.
I admitted to Amy and Jean that I battled and still battle with the struggle of wanting to have the perfect home and be the perfect hostess before I would ever let anyone step inside my house.
My home which I loved, but treated with shame, only daring to let close people I trusted inside if I knew they came from a similar socio-economic background and would just “get it and be okay” that my “home is the way it is.” I know… it’s crazy, but it’s honestly how my mind worked. I made excuses for why people couldn’t come inside of the home … and most of the time… it was because of my fear of judgment. Of people judging the home and my family I loved, and simply seeing the outer appearance as dingy and unkempt. It’s an inner battle I still face, but in the end, it doesn’t matter.
Yes. Some people do judge, but if we let our fears and judgment of others get in the way of what God wants us to do in our lives, we’ll always live in the darkness of the constant fear of judgment and disapproval.
Sitting in Amy and Jean’s “small” apartment was what I needed as a wake-up call… a gentle nudge from God to teach me a lesson. Here with Amy and Jean – sharing their apartment and their food with what they had– this was beauty.
With love. <3